We did not realised he didn't look healthy or maybe we did see it but not register it in our brains.
We did try our best to commute from PTA and Rustenburg every weekend trying to spend enough time as we could.
My husband shaved his hair for cancer awareness.
It has been a rollercoaster ride of emotions scared, fear, hope, faith, trust, anger, confusion, sad, emotional, and many more. At one stage you did not know what to feel or think was the weirdest feeling ever.
When we found out I especially arranged a awesome birthday party for my husband as this mighy be his last brithday together. And glad I was thay I did it, put in those extra little efforts. And Was that a special day to remember with his dad.
After my husbands birthday, came Christmas and again went out of out way to make this day special, as it could be his last Christmas and sadly it was. But memorable. You realise now how much it means to take photos, to keep memories alive. Glad we did.
After Christmas Reino's dad has been just getting worst every week, I remember in the last month, everytime we said goodbye "really goodbye" it was the hardest thing to see. The pain that went theough your chest. Tears you try to keep swallowing, try not to make it tooemotional for his sake. We would get in the car and our heart would just pour out.
Till today couple of months later its still hard for Reino, he gets his days were the pain is too much, tears come again and the wound is fresh again. But we would keep on praying and the pain would get less again but soon it comes back again. I know we all still think about him everyday, i know sometimes Reino randomly wants to give him a call, send a sms and hopes to heat his voice just one more time... Hug his dad just one more time.... Lets just talk a little bit more he would say.
I would like to thank everybody for their prayers and for such love and strong faith! We prayed so hard, and we know he tried his best to fight cancer, he fought so so hard! We know that he has peace now, no more pain and he is probably having fun in heaven!
One saddest thing of all thay breaks out hearts, he will never be able to meet our children. When we do have children it is going to be a tough one to think about.
One of the last photo I could take. I always felt so awkward to take photo's, but what I did take was worth it and wish I took more! Always take photos, they precious memories thay are kept alive.
RIP Nico. We know you lived your life the fullest.
Lotsa love your son and daughter in law.
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